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Wednesday, 20 October 2010

Today is another day

Ever felt like the day has just been a disaster from the start?

Having the though I should never have got out of bed!!!

Yes we have all at one point had that thought.  Its human nature to feel like you are failing your self and losing control.  We are creatures of habit and obsessive over control in our own lifes. Routines, structures, appointments, agenda's our lifes our bombarded with these and it becomes part of our who we are and what we are in our lifes.  So in other words we become a statistic of life of productivity and part of group that seeks to gain the same outcome.

The natural process of being is structure in our daily lifes and when this breaks down it can be fustraiting and dehumanizing so much so that it creates a knock on effect with every aspect of our lifes.

Monday, 18 October 2010

I have a Voice not just inside my head!!!

I want to be heard, I may not have gone to public school or had the best education mummy and daddy could afford, but im just as much a part of this society as anyother person on the street.

My opinions are valid yet don't seem to count!  My words are wasted like food when people are dying of starvation.

I hear so many people tell me whats right and what is wrong but i don't hear people ask What do you think?  Is my perception not good enough am I just like they say a pawn in a mighty game?

I am not a number nor a name on a list I am me!!  No one will be born again like me we are all unique in our own right and DNA can prove this, we are not statistics people we are, we live, we breathe Make the most of your life and make it count, don't fear, fear you have never felt embrace it for it is better to have lived and learned than to have not lived at all!

Sunday, 17 October 2010

Do you want to know what I think? or is democracy a scam to make us conform.

analysing the self

One morning I woke up and lay in bed looking out the window far into the passing grey clouds.

I knew I had to get up soon to wash, to dress, to feed the kids, to take them to school, to go to uni, to do the shopping, the cooking, the cleaning and then end the day once again.

For that brief moment of time laying in bed a sense of wonder washed over me, Why am i here? What really is my purpose? am I really even real or am i a figment of someone Else's imagination... Crazy thoughts I know, but that moment in time has haunted me since.

Its such a scary thought to think we get a few years at each life stage and if we don't get it right we cant get it back to do again. Instead we have to move on to the next stage with regret and with a supposing learned mature outlook. Its unfair I think to move through the life stages and not feel ready for them. To look older but feel just as young as you did years ago.

So what is it all for? Why must we all endure this mortal process? To live to breath to reproduce to establish.

Are we determined or are we making our own future? Is it really an open empty book or our the pages already written?

Is this one big test from higher means?  So we can prove our worth to pass on to the real existence of life?  Or were the Egyptians rite is this but a mere dream and life is yet to happen? 

Ever had the sense life is passing you by to quick?  One day you look at your self in the mirror and admire the youth that stands before you. Next minute you are confronted with a person you hardly recognise nor neither know!!! 

Its funny how life's memories flash in the minds eye those little moments you treasure those associated happy thoughts like little giggle pills, that you reach for in times of despair.

My favourite thing that we process as a human being is the ability to hold on to these executions like a certain smell in your mind and how it can bring back floods of memories we thought were gone.

Or music amazing how when we listen to it, it creates all sorts of feeling within sadness happiness love fear, now that is truly amazing.

I mean what I'm getting at is you hear so many negative things about us as humans are bad behaviour and are natural abilities to survive. 

But what about the amazing this we our.  Have we truly apprehend this do you think?

Am I the only one who thinks like this?

I need to know what other people think so i can know if im crazy or not """lol""""